I never have a point in my life where i could say im truly happy, throughout my entire life ive been stuck in survival mode, when i was 4 i have to worry about my parents trying not to kill each other because theyre yelling at each other, when i was in elementary i have to do my homework all alone with nobody to teach me because everyone is so busy, and on highschool ive been struggling on how to deal with my adhd problems, tried opening up but developed a trauma for it instead, im tired of being tired, im sick of not wanting to sleep because as time pass, doomsday might come, tomorrow scares me, i can't take a break, and its crushing me, i feel like i never developed, and im at a point in my life where i need to step up, but i never developed the strength.