I'm in love with a girl. Deeply in love. I'm a girl too, bi + ace. She's bi but she has a boyfriend. This is the second boyfriend she's had since I've known her. Unlike the last one, this guy seems to make her genuinely happy. But, I'm kind of jealous I guess. This is my first ever real "crush." Every time I see him I want to vomit. I've always thought he was kind of a prick, but still a pretty good guy. I don't know, it just makes me kind of sad. I always thought I had some kind of small slither of hope with her. But, her new boyfriend kind of destroyed that hope and just replaced it with a sadness. I mean, there was barely any hope there anyway... I'm fat. She's beautiful. I'm awkward. She's kind. But, there was still some hope. I just feel so weird now. Like, I don't know what to do. I think about her constantly but she's not into me. I almost had that hope again the other day. I never told her I was bi and came out and she seemed kind of disappointed I didn't tell her. But, idk.