It is so frustrating to be falling apart at the seams at my young age. I am only 46 years old, and already I have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, thyroiditis, and a litany of other medical and psychiatric issues. I forgot to mention that even though I am young, I have COPD and am being limited by that as well. COPD keeps me from being able to play basketball or any physical sports for that matter. Other things limit me as well. Apparently, I have tendinitis in my right hand that makes me lose strength in it and have numbness in my fingers. All of this comes on top of being so stressed that I can barely function in my day-to-day life. I am too young for all of this. It seems unfair to waste my mind and energy from now on when I am in so much pain. Some people would just end it, but that isn't me. I will keep plodding forward, expecting to come out on top in the end.