I've been feeling worse and worse everyday to the point that not even ranting about it is helping. the feeling of not having a proper father, and having a mother who acts like it never happened tho shit did happen doesn't help. i keep thinking about conversations that could have gone differently and better and how my life would be easier rn. but i can't change a thing about the past. Parents screaming, mother trying to end her life multiple times, plant pots shattering dog barking and me hugging my sister. My sister has always been my safe place, but now i feel like even that is slipping away. She moved in with her boyfriend over a year ago and it's been getting worse and worse ever since she moved. My relationship with my brother has started to become more and more violent with screaming and yelling and then silence.. i keep thinking what i could do differently. my life position is good. but my past and my current mental state is shattering me more and more by the day