Im undiagnosed but I feel like I have adhd. I've been trying to get myself do my work but I just cant especially when that work contains writing I just cant bring myself to sit still and write. Y think I'm just dumb. I think I'm just lazy. I think I'm just using this as an excuse to be lazy. I'm such an awful person. I want to ask for help but with the people around me I dont think they will. I grew up in a place where people think mental illnesses are for weak sensitive people they'll probably just think I'm like that and make fun of me. I want to talk to a therapist but they're just too expensive in my country. And if I do talk to one, what if they'll just confirm my suspicions, about me being a lazy awful person. No matter how hard I try my head is so loud I want to go to sleep but I cant I have responsibilities which I cant even do because of my situation. Its all just a big hell loop