i keep trying to be easier to love softer quieter less afraid but at the end of every night all i really want is to stop wondering if you’ll ever love me the way i love you i’m just on the side like a light left on in another room noticed only when the dark gets unbearable you reach for me when silence starts clawing at your throat when the nights get too long when loneliness curls beside you in bed and suddenly my name tastes sweet again then the room goes quiet and i can feel myself fading from your hands i know what i am here for a soft place to fall a voice that answers too quickly a heart that never learned how to lock the door and maybe that’s the cruelest part not that you use me but that i let you every single time hoping someday you’ll hold me like i was chosen instead of convenient everyone else sees it before i do the pauses in your voice the way i orbit around your needs like my whole purpose is to keep you warm while i freeze quietly beside you