I wish I had someone to talk to about my trauma. Even just answers about what happened to me, why it happened, how it happened. When I look back on my past, there were so many warning signs. I don't understand why the adults around me didn't see it, didn't do something. I know my family changed doctors and all that a lot, and I'm assuming it was to avoid getting reported, but how could they know they could get reported and not stop what was happening? Wouldn't it be a sign to stop and change what's happening to me? Most of the trauma didn't happen in the home anyway. My family makes fun of me, says I was a dramatic kid, I was always faking being in pain, always crying about something. They said I was so demanding as a baby (like under a year old baby). I feel so alone, I feel so afraid. I don't know what's wrong with me, why didn't anyone save me? What was/is wrong with me? I just wish someone could see me, really see me, and not hate me. It's 4am and I want to cry but I have no one.