My mom was being super weird and bought like 30 dollars in candy for me and when I told her not to do that and that I dont want her to spend money like that she got mad at me and took away my phone. Im not complaining about the candy, Im. just stressed with school and im tired of having to be an adult. the gas is out and i need to fix it. i dont have the number and i need gas. my mom is tired. i think she will get over it. i returned the candy. lowkey relapsed, also I was rocking back and forth on my floor for a bit. i have work tommorrow and i alot of stuff to do so im not going to drink. im tired. I switched my meds so i feel more now. i want to go back, i can't justify more expensive medication. this day feels like last year. i don't know why im complaining. im just lonley and i dont have any freinds or any safe adult to talk to. im probably getting groomed. im so fucking touch starved. haha lowkey all my freinds abandoned me. no one really even reached out. is this how jillian felt