i’m watching everybody around me have all these milestones, babies, romance. love. something i want but it always seems jusy out of reach. maybe i’m undeserving of love. though it’s not shocking. who’d want the sex repulsed freak. certainly not anybody worth anything. i don’t deserve it. how coukd i be stupud enoigh to tbink i’m worthy of romantic loce. i don’t deserve you guys. i feel like i could just disappear and it would make things better. you wouldn’t have to talk to me, check in when i’m so unwilling to let myseld be cared for. i coukd finally fucking disappear and stop being a pathetic waste of space. you guys could move on. yoh wouldn’t have to include me anymore. you could play your games, have your fun. go achieve all the great things you’re meant to do together while i’m just left alone. rotting. like i deserve.