I feel alone in this world, I feel like I dont want to be here but not like I want to die, Im scared of death and Im scared of being alone but its all building up in a way I cant release. I dont know what to do, and I dont want to feel like this, I dont want to feel like a burden for sharing my emotions, I dont want to hurt others with the pain Im going through, I hate the way I think, the way I feel, the way my mind circles over and over about every last thing I have ever done. I over think, I over explain, I dont like it but I cant articulate thoughts or words in a way I understand without explaining them, and even then I dont understand. I want to know why my parents hate me, my my brother hates me, why my family called me an abuser when I was struggling with more then they ever realized and was being abused for 16 years of my life while they coward in fear from me, from a little girl who needed help, who needed love and support. I really just wanted to feel loved.