I don't see anything in my future anymore. I feel so alone with no one to talk or turn to. I keep fucking up and picking the wrong choices even after all that overthinking and I can't recover from it and no one can save me. Everything feels so dull and repetitive, I'm never happy or good enough, I don't have my friends around me anymore or my boyfriend. My mental health is actively declining that the only thing keeping me from offing myself is fucking marauders fanfics and spotify premium. I feel guilty of feeling these things cuz I have a family that gives me so much freedom and support despite the bare amount of affection, its too much of an inconvenience for a funeral anyway so I have to keep living at this point.
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