my friend is really suicidal. im so scared all of he damn time bc of her but i cant tell her that. shes my everything. i could never live my life the same again if she committed. but she internalizes everything and i dont want to force t, so im not getting anywhere close to helping her. i wish i was jut a guardian angel so i could be by her side and protect her from the pain and disgust eating away at her. i know its corny asf but thats my biggest dream. i cant let her die