i miss my sweet old man, smokey. he was the cutest baby ever and theres not a day that goes by where i dont miss him, i truly think that when he died, apart of me died too. i remember crying all afternoon once i realized it was time to let him go and not suffer any longer bc he wasnt eating any of his favorite foods anymore, not even yummy steak. looking down at him while he laid on my lap cradled up into my blanket was absolutely gut-wrenching. i remember him staring up at me quietly the whole time, almost as if he knew what was going to happen next as we drove him to the vet at like 7pm, and for a relatively loud cat, he was pretty calm. I think thats what finally broke me, because we both knew this would be out last chance to hug, kiss, and enjoy each others presence. I miss how integrated he was in my life, like how when id come home, he’d always make sure to greet me or how when i was gaming, he would want to come cuddle up on me because he was such a cuddly kitty. i miss you 🐈⬛