Sometimes i feel like i just get so pathetic at night when i dont call my gf or im not occupied with something, i always think that her and her friends are talking about me and saying stuff (i know they arent mean but like for example, today me and my gf had some minor things we both got upset about and my gf will normally tell her friends about what happened but that lowk makes me feel uneasy because now they know and idk i just think its awkward and ik thats just me being annoying/weird but ugh i just hate it but i cant say anything because yk… shes allowed to express whatever she wants to whoever if it makes her feel better in the end) but anyways like now im just laying here and thinking like shes probably going to get sick of me at some point, i literally have no redeeming qualities and tbh i dont think im saying that just bc i hate myself, i truly think i offer nothing. Im so scared for the day that she’ll realize that because i love her so much and i know i must be a lot