I was clean for so long, I was doing so good, I was on a good sleep schedule. I didn't care what I ate, I was doing so fucking good I felt so good. All down the drain, it's all gone. I'm back to how shitty my life was and I'm afraid it's going to keep getting worse. I was doing fine, I was clean for at least 5 months, I wasn't suicidal anymore and I was hygienic and active. But it all started slipping away just like everything else. It all started with him, I should of never associated myself with him, I should of never dated him because as soon as I did I started having panic attacks and anxiety and I couldn't handle my emotions. I would freak out over the smallest things, I wasn't stable. It stopped for awhile after I broke up with him but.. Gradually it started sleeping through the seems again. And that lead to me ending up feeling numb and not being able to control my emotions at the same time. So I started hurting myself again. Just a little bit, just to feel something WORD LIMIT