I’m so done. I’m so done with pretending I’m okay all the time, I’m really not. I feel so fucking alone all the damn time even when I’m surrounded in a room full of people, maybe that’s because they would never choose me. Everyone’s “nice” to my face but I know deep down they don’t like me, but hell I don’t even like myself. I’ve been having panic attacks and mental breakdowns, I can’t even make it a full week of school that’s how fucking pathetic I am. I’ve been having flash backs like crazy from when my ex touched me without my consent. I don’t even know if it counts. I was hanging out with him and he put his hands under my jeans, MY FUCKING JEANS. Then he put his hands under my shirt and grabbed my boobs without asking, I was silent I froze, how pathetic can I be. Then when he finally stopped because I got words out the only thing he could say was “they’re nice” I can’t do this anymore I can’t, I feel like a TOTAL fucking slut