I've been feeling restless lately. Ever since I reconnected with this one friend, I feel like I've been losing it. I didn't realize how much I missed him. I thought I had moved on. This just made me realize how pathetic I am. How quickly I get attached. I don't like the person I am right now. I can't focus on anything and it's like my brain just decided to specifically latch onto him and I don't know why. I feel like a complete weirdo because I just know that he barely thinks of me, if at all. I can't be the one to send a text first. I don't know why I get so nervous, why I care so much. I'm so anxious all the time now. He's just a regular guy, and yet the first thing that comes to mind is him when I wake up, and when I go to sleep. At this point I hate that he even came back.