I would think that Its finally summer break for me I would be able to relax and not feel anxiety/stress. But instead I'm pressured to learn units/topics for next year because I've always been the "gifted kid". And now I'm burnt out and don't know how to cope. I'm sick of 96+ grades as the bare minimum and taking all top classes at my school. The thing is most people in my situation are forced to get good grades because of parents/family but for me its really peer pressure and just me. People always ask for my grade or to do their work and it feels good when I am able to impress and just be better I guess but if I even make a small mistake its like I lost my worth. And I've really been trying but I'm getting more irritated more often. So recently (yesterday) I found a pencil sharpener and if ykyk I relapsed. I have a cruise in a few days (2) and I can't just wear sweatshirts and its not on my wrist so I can't wear braclets. I don't want to live but I don't wanna die.