im so tired of all this bullshit everyday and my mind just keeps adding on top of it its literally summer why the fuck am i so sad? I go outside i see how everyone is so happy and shit and it makes me feel even worse. Everywhere i go im always left out and treated badly. Every connection that i have with other people i always end up looking like an idiot cause i cared too much. "No i wont leave you!" Biggest fucking lie ive ever heard. Everyone always dissapoints me but i deserve it cause i do the same, because im a disgusting person. Everyday im so tired of going to school and having to worry about someone accidentally seeing my scars. I literally just feel the same everyday. I have the same tight feeling in my chest and i hate it so much, everyday i wake up wishing i didnt. i just wanna be happy bro. I genuinely cant take this anymore. I wanna dissapear to somewhere peaceful. Somewhere alone. Because im tired of absolutely everything in my fucking life that i dont even want.