Dear husband, I will get better for you. I am not ready. I am so broken and crazy and im sorry im taking so long. But I want you to know that I already love you and can't wait to be with you. God has shown me I need to change back to who I was. The protective, logical, organized and efficient person I once was. But I am going to try because I hope to be with you one day and I hope we can live a long and happy rest of our lives together. I hope I didnt mess things up to badly, but I am willing to change