I have extreme history with self harm, I did it for the first time in 6th grade for a bit, then relapsed in 8th grade and Freshman year, as well as the beginning of Sophomore year, before finally getting therapy. My dad tells me I can tell him anything all the time, he encourages me to talk to him about this stuff, yet the first time I opened up to a counselor in middle school about suicidal thoughts and he was called? He screamed at me, he berated me, told me I was just trying to make him look bad and was just speaking attention, he didn't know about my actual self harm till freshman year when I relapsed, when he found out, he called me stupid, the r word, again said u was looking for attention, said I just wanted him and my mom to feel bad and try to kill themselves again, said I was a terrible person, called me dumbass, stupid, more times than I can count, and he still holds it over my head, the crazy thing is that he himself has history with selfharm, but he says my life is perfect