I’m tired. I’m really tired. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to exist. Sometimes I wish I could be reborn and remade into something better. Someone better.. better everything, not even just a small thing just. Everything. I can work or fix or change any part of me but it’s never good enough. Pick a part of me and there’s something wrong or off about it. I don’t want to be perfect but jfc I wish there was something I could look at and think “hey.. that’s not too bad”… I try so hard to be a kind person, do my best, try to be supportive, take care of people but. Why does no one ever check in? I know that’s selfish it’s not about me but I wish someone would just ask how I am, if I’m OK. But.. everything’s going so well for everyone right now. I can’t spoil it by being selfish. How can I reach out to people after they’ve had wonderful things happen to them.. and they deserve so much happiness, not whatever mess this is. I’ll be fine but don’t know what to do.. goodnight everyone