i honestly feel like idgas yk? i mean it's terrible and i dont want to admit or do i actually give a shit and just avoiding my feelings cos i am far away and cant do anything abt it either way i feel like i wan to give myself time and space to be a human being who is out in the world and working for the first time without having t feel resentment towards people. Like i know it is selfish but i want things to work on my timeline and i t's unrealistic but gaddamn i dont have the emotional bandwith to deal with other people's issues yk?? i have my own shit to deal with atm. but haih cant help but feel 50/50. do my parents really need to call me every week? am i truly the only person eva and moneeta can talk to? but i had a chate with layangi yesterday and oh boy i have been ABSENT in her life i cant believe it. but yk i truly feel comfortable with her, like i can be. my true self, but hwat is my true self? i guess i need to discover more about myself so that i feel more comfortbale in my