i really hate myself. i really really hate myself. I wish I was gone. i wish someone would tell me they loved me and actually showed it. I want them to comfort me. I don't feel loved or appreciated no matter how much people tell me they love me. They hardly show it and I can't bring myself to have that constant trust if they're not putting in the effort to show me they care about me. they know when I'm not doing okay but no one ever checks up on me. is it so wrong I want someone to reach out to me and love me? what is bad about wanting someone's approval and constant support? how do I ask for it without coming off as needy and desperate?