Genuinely don’t know how much longer I can do this. I’m so, so sick. My head is wrong and has been since I was born. I’m only in the situation I’m in right now because even if it’s not ideal, it’s still better than being alone. I’d rather die than be alone, and at this point, death is looking more promising every passing day. The amount of people who love me shouldn’t, and I know they’d get over me eventually. I’m so sorry to all of you…