I, teen male, have been just, bottling up, numbing emotions, more of directly sad. When my ex broke up with me, I pushed it back, I didn't want to deal with it then, but now I can't seem to get it back and actually cry. She hates me so I can't talk to her about it. I just feel like I have no people I trust to talk to about this. Yes I have a therapist, but I don't talk to them about this, I just dont want to. Like I trust her, but not to that extent. I have a crush on a current girl and I know she doesn't like me back which im, not sure about, but one of my male best friends have been getting close with her(she likes women im pretty sure) and it's making me not only feel left out but also kinda forgotten and uncomfortable. He doesn't know I like her but don't know what to do anymore. As of writing this, I have just shed a few tears but I felt terrible. I believe why I shed a few was because I just finished an emotional show, "Takopi's Original Sin" is the name. It's a lot to takein