I'm about to graduate and I feel just so sad I've never had true love really just people using me and I don't feel like I'm not anyone's like best closest person and I know it's not true but it still hurts a lot. I cry over the stupidest shit I just had one of the best and most fun days of my life and I'm still super sad because I feel hopeless for no good reason. I wish I had more time with my friends I graduate tomorrow and like it's really bittersweet because my life has been hell the entirety of high school and I've been struggling with really severe anxiety and depression + ADHD. It just feels like no matter how much good happens in my life I always find the negative in it and hyper-focus on it. I always feel like I'm doing it for attention as well even if I don't even talk to anybody about it. I feel like a bum because I don't get the opportunity to hang out with friends often at all, and it sucks because everyone else is having so much fun and I'm just me I guess.