i just wish i was someones first choice. im always left out or the spare or the third wheel. im just so tired of it. once my "best friend'''s favorite person arrives they abrubtly stop talking to me and focus all their attention onto them. my friends have also been told not to associate themselves with me because of how ugly i am. i also hate my personality. im very reserved/quiet/introverted, so naturally this makes me less appealing to people. when people do talk to me though, i just can't talk to them without stuttering. i basically stutter with anyone who is not my family...or even during conflicted arguments with my family i stutter as well. no one will or wants to understand anyways. and when i actually have the courage to talk or bring this up to other people, they ask if i ever considered the fact that im the problem. i also have never had anyone romantically interested in me, which figures, because i don't think i would be interested in myself either.