At first I thought this simple crush on a friend would be beneficial, you’re smart, always on top of your work, and you go to class everyday. I go to the classes we share I pay attention because you pay attention. I’ve noticed flaws and loved those flaws… in a way. You annoy but in the right ways. You make me feel stupid, but that makes me want to know more. You help me with my homework. You do so much for me yet I don’t think I have anything to do for you. I don’t think I could be a good match conversationally or educationally. I get to nervous just talking one on one, I speak less so maybe you won’t notice how foolish i’m acting. In a group setting I get loud and obnoxious around you. I dream of your face and voice, corny and sexually, and I can never see you the same. But either way you have a girlfriend. I don’t think I would’ve pursued you if you didn’t, despite all of this tearing me up. Genuinely can’t tell if I hate this guy or love this guy.