I used to self harm all the time and i havent in months. I was depressed for two years back in 2021-22. My life has gotten so much better. I have an amazing boyfriend, a loving mom, a decent job, its summer, im free. But when im alone in my room i just cry and cry and i dont know why. Everything is good, life is good. So why am i STILL sad? Why do habits from my depression linger? Why cant i just be happy. I want to hurt myself so bad, i miss it and i dont know why. I cant tell anyone. I dont want to put that burden on anyone. Especially not him. But i want to talk about it and i want to do it and the only thing stopping me is the fact that i know someone would see it. I dont know what to do.