i wish i could have atleast one person to talk to. ive made friends over and over again and over and over again they will leave. my parental figures (my dad and my grandparents) all have stopped talking to me, my mom passed away. my siblings honestly have never liked me, and the more i think about it the less i feel like anyone has. they either become my friend to make fun of me or because they feel bad for me, and when i FINALLY had someone who cared i drove them away. so maybe it is my fault? but its been years since then and ive changed so fcking much and when i was finally given a chance, i ended up finding out about them making fun of me behind my back, again. im tired of people. i do miss him and my mom, they felt like the only ones who cared sometimes. HELL MY CATS DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE.