i keep tearing up by the slightest inconvenience but i have to keep hiding it because of my little sister, i love her and even before my dad died, she always came to me for advice and help but i also feel stuck here at my parents house because of her. i cook and clean and i feel used by my mother, she always tries to act like a mother but she always just makes fun of me. in the past my mother made fun of me for trying to kill myself, when i was in the hospital and even on the way to therapy. i fear that my sister goes thru the same but i know she is stuck to my mother. also because of my bad education due to my depression and fear of school i never manage to get a good job, after 2 years of looking i finally got a job at a gas station and its not enough to live nowadays, not alone and especially not with my sister. i feel so stuck and i dont know what to do, i have no friend who would help me. i dont think im suicidal anymore but i fear that it comes back if i dont get a small victory