why can't i act normal? every time i'm out in public, i can acutely feel every action my body makes, and it always feels wrong. i make tiny movements in my face, my arms, my legs, my hand, but nothing feels right. especially when i'm in lectures, my body posture feels all wrong and my hands start tingling weirdly. how can i explain this to anyone else? you guys all obviously have something unhappy to rant about. but i'm my life, everyone is just fine. maybe a little grumpy about taxes and stuff, but no one has this level of mental issues. i want to find out what is wrong with me. i hate not knowing why i do the things i do. getting a diagnosis would be wonderful, but that's never going to happen. i wouldn't want my diagnosis to have to be legally revealed to employers and such. i just want to feel okay again. or maybe i was never fine to being with, and i'm realising what's happening slowly over time.