Its honestly not surprising to me anymore, all of my life ive found myself stuck in a pattern of dating. We date, it gets toxic, they find someone during the relationship, and eventually leave me for that person and end up treating them better. But its become such an obvious pattern, the relationship only lasting a few months, never a year. Ive become some what a girlfriend fairy. Im tired of romance. My current boyfriend who I had an entire romance novel story with, is just now distancing from me, all I know is that hes probably losing feelings. Like every single one always does. Eh. nice while it lasted, waste of hope to think it would last a year.