i hate the way i attach myself to people i cant seem to learn to live with myself, to be with my own thoughts. hence i attach myself to people but these people never last, and i let it kill me from the inside when they slowly pull apart. i dont have a best friend anymore, but i used to. this boy got so close to me so fast, never made me feel lonely again. but he slowly pulled away and now it feels like were acquaintances, but i never felt lonelier the worst part is, he cant seem to let me go. whenever i find every ounce of self respect to choose myself, its like he notices and doesnt let me go, acts clingy for a bit to make me feel bad, then pulls away again when i stay its exhausting, but i cant find it in myself to leave him completely, because he made me happier than i ever did in forvever. maybe that can happen again, i hate feeling alone