I'm stuck in one place surrounded by reminders of my mistakes. I am facing eviction for something I wish I could take back. Twice sent death threats because of my past. I deserved them. I can not change my past but I will try to adjust my future. Easier said than done. Crimes like the ones I have committed are often looked at as worse than murder despite not actually abusing anyone or causing harm in any physical way. Because of this awful addiction I developed, I have a 5 year sentence probation which to many is an incredibly lucky low end punishment for my crimes. I have a week to find somewhere to live or else face the streets along with my cat, and no hope for recovery. After everything however, I still seek redemption. My friends and family, unaware of my crimes, unknowingly hate on people like me saying if they discovered something as such that person would be cut off, abandoned, lynched, or worse. For those that have figured out the crime, just know I truly regret it all.