I’m feeling so depressed recently. I recently got kicked out of my man’s house and it was the first place I felt like I belonged, I used to have this amazing beautiful girlfriend, I was bi curious at the time and she was the first girl I think I’ve ever truly liked, she ended things after a long time and I still can’t get over her. Almost everything makes me think of her, old songs we used to listen to and even the drinks she liked. I’ve moved in with my mum and I’ve got a boyfriend now but I can’t help this gnawing feeling like I wake up everyday for the same thing, just existing and I’m starting to loose reasons to stay. I’ve also became addicted to weed recently and other things and I want to stop so badly but I just can’t ever open up without shutting myself down or just getting up and leaving. I really want things to get better but I’m not sure how long I can hold on anymore