i want to kms but i cant bring myself to do it , i cant leave it when i have people who care , i keep telling myself everything will get better but i wont , ive been feeling like this since i was 9 , im now a fucking pathectic teenager , and the suicide thoughts never gets outta my head . i keep telling myself people have it worse than i do so im being dramatic but the shit ive had to go through is horrifying , everyone judges me for being quiet but if they dad a single deep talk with me theyd finally fucking get why i am the way i am , so here it is , i got abused mentally and physically by my mums partner and my mum for 2 years , i cant keep friendships because they judge me , i cant stop cutting , its like an addiction atp , my boyfriend in year 7 made comments to me about f#cking me and stuff he dreams about doing me , it was vile , he followed me home , and still talks about me whenever my friends see him outta the blue , im so done , i might be leaving soon xxxxx bye guys , luv u