Im so done with this right now , i have to go to school with a smile on my face , battling tears and i have to tell the same lie "im fine" every single time sm1 asks if im okay and im done dealing with it. ive been in and out of hospital recently from overdoses or cuts and im getting sick and tired of feeling how im feeling , all i want is to be happy and okay , but this school , omg , this bloody school i hate it!! everyone here , their horrible , or boring , or i just dont like them and all the teachers are just assuming im gonna click with sm1 instantly when i dont want friends here , i have friends , and they are just amazing , i love them and i love that their is no one else like them , but i dont want people here i rlly dont. i miss them bc i moved , i barely see them anymore , i dont want to lose them and i really dont want us all to grow apart....... my dad is also mad at me bc im going on holiday with my mum after she abused me , he doesnt get it tho , shes my mum sooo idk ...