it feels silly to rant about myself because everyones problems here are so much worse. and i guess thats why i am where i am right now. putting others before me cuz my feelings are very silly in front of their very important ones. i dont know why i chose to stay friends with my ex his making me miserable like he did when we were dating. he says he has no frriends and sometimes he even says its my fault and i dont know what sick attachment i have that i still tolerate him but i know why he doesnt have friends. its cuz his like this. i hate being mean so much but he brings out the worst in me. always making it about himself always being a hypocrite always yelling and reacting no one would want to be friends with someone like this who cant control his words and is so quick to react. i feel so bad but i dont think im gonna talk to him again even if he doesnt have anyone to talk to it isnt my responsibility anymore. i just wanna exist without being burdened. ive carried it for 2 years.