i realize that i do have alot of the symptoms on bpd criteria but its all internlized so i constanly hate my self try to froce myself to stay cal be noraml and not show of how intesne my emotions are i also when i was a kid to young teen i cried at just about anything but not in a normal kid way but in a i feel my emtions so striong and i dont know how to cotnrol it and not in a wy oh im just a young kid im growing up it was littarly stinger and harder then any other kid i knew or saaw and i dont express it often unless i lose cotnrol then tht means soemthing really bad most of happened what does this mean but when im show emotion its realy distressing last time i showed my emotion to anyone i compeltley freaked them the fuck out somtimes i just snap and lose cotnrol like once i just snapped and crashed out ran after some guy swung at him threatend him cursed him out all whilst he waas on the phone so then i tried to smack there phone out of there hand and then i realized i was mak