I like her so much to the point sometimes I cant think of what to say to her but were just always going to be friends. she likes some other girl and doesn't know I'm trans to a male so there's just no way we could be with eachother and it hurts so much I cry all the time we are so close she will lay on my shoulder and I cant even breath and every day we get more and more close people would think we are dating if they didn't know better from how we act and I nearly just ghost her because I cant bear to see her all the time but I could never hurt her so I have to stay or I would hate myself but it just hurts so bad to the point I cant sleep I'm just thinking about her and crying all night long about it