I have family problems and some days it feels like im going insane and they're fine, lovely people and other days it feels like i need to rip my skin off because they say shit like "Hitler wasn't really wrong" (actual quote btw) the only way I can stop myself from going actually insane is by writing down the worst of the crap they spew and reminding myself im almost 18. I can't say shit to anyone irl and anytime I want to rage to myself in my room i just get reminded I have access to a gun thats in my dresser (because of my sister 🙃🙄) and it feels too real to say/think anything violent because of it.