i feel like I have no friends like I hate myself bc I feel like I just can’t find myself liking them. I miss my old friends but we barely talk or text anymore and I just can’t move on from them. They were my reason to live at some point now they’re just gone. I miss calling them. I miss texting them for hours. Now, it’s been months since our last call. It’s been almost a year since we last hung out together. I can’t find myself trusting anyone else but them because I just love them so much. I’d give anything to be with them again. Deep down, I hate the people I hang out with now. They make me laugh and smile, but I find them annoying at times. When they tell me about their worries, I feel out of place bc I wouldn’t ever tell them anything more surface level stuff. I don’t trust anyone else but my old friends but they don’t trust me because I’m not their best friend anymore bc we just drifted apart.