i like talking a lot, but that doesnt always mean im always up for conversations. i dont like small talks, but it doesn't really bother me that much. i prefer having my time alone, but it does get pretty lonely sometimes that i get the urge to make friends, make a change, every single time. but guess what? it never works. im still stuck w this shitty situation no matter how hard i try to get out of it. im nothing without someone by my side, im more prone to negative thoughts so yes, im alone in most days. i feel like people who i consider my friends doesnt really care about me. i doubt they even notice me. the only interesting thing in my life is going to school. at home, nothing ever happens but a never-ending loop that makes me wonder why im like this