Im genuinely so stressed out. I have severe anxiety so it's not anything im not used too, but god the pressure has been building lately. Where i live you can get yiur learners at 14. Im 15 and i havent done anything about it. Everyone my age had theirs and it's really been getting to me. Im not depressed or anything- atleast I think. But god it feels like every single day I put on this fake smile and laugh at everyone's jokes whilst I make my own im loosing something in myself. I truly have no clue who I am, I lost myself pretending to be someone I was long ago. Intop of that im actually failing school! Lucky me I know i know, dont get too jealous. I listen just as much as everybody else. I watch and listen and repeat until my youngest number and I just can't retain the information. I get handed a paper and forget everything. I try so hard to pretend I know what im doing to the point I look even more stupid than I'd like to admit since im so stubborn.