no matter who i am with i feel so idk left out? even if its just 2 of us i always feel like no one has ever truly cared about me, as if im unlovable. even in my family not that there bad there definetly not but my mum would do anything for my sisters and cant even pick me up half the time it feels like there a family and im just living in the house. i always feel guilty even if i didnt do anything i fell impending doom and low key feel like no one would care if i killed myself it feels like im just watching from the sidelines.