I just want to cry. So much is going on right now and I’m so overwhelmed. I’ve been struggling alot these past few days and my suicidal thoughts have been creeping back in. I feel like an absolute failure. Everything is always my fault, I have failed yet again. I decided to just isolate myself, I’m going to eat one big meal today and then I’m going to go back to starving like I use to, it will most certainly numb the pain, that’s better than Self harming or suic*de right 😔