I want to die for the “dumbest” of reasons some may say. I live in the middle of nowhere with my grandma. Not because we have to, but by choice. I haven’t 0 friends, 0 money, no relationships, no stimulation and i only have my phone to help me cope. My mom used to work a high paying job with a lot of money. we would do everything. but she quit because it tired her out. I understand, because she’s been working literally my entire life and longer for me and my siblings alone. At first it was okay. we switched between houses and lived fine. I was in online school (still am), had friends and did everything still. Until now. like before, i live with my grandma in the middle of nowhere. nothing. Thats not even the worst part. The lies is. I can’t take living like this anymore so i asked my mom “can things please be how they where or let me live with my dad so i can live my life” she says “yes im going back to work” but never does. 2 years of constant lies, bordem, suicidal thoughts, and i ca