My depression has been getting worse lately, I can tell. The days are all mixing, nothing feels real, whenever I get scolded or yelled at I don’t even bother to argue back, I just take it and stay silent. I forgot that my friend and I had made plans tonight to play some video games. I feel so awful, I had forgotten that the plans were for today, she was so excited about it. I responded to her an hour late and she didn’t answer so I assumed she went to bed. I apologized to her twice, I hope she isn’t upset with me and has some peaceful rest. I know how it feels to be forgotten so I hope she doesn’t feel it as deeply as I do. I will do better next time, I need to get better. I need to remember the days… but everything is just a blur. I feel lost, I feel like a bad friend. She’s the only friend that ever checks on me, I can’t be forgetting things like this. Hopefully she is free tomorrow and I can make it up to her, I hope she forgives me.